Heh.... Sorry that seemed pretty harsh when I read it again. Maybe that's why I love yer work so much, cuz I can identify with the horror of it but its warm and womby what with its bright colors.
Yeah man. I have no advice on how to not act like that. I struggle with it every damn day. Just keep pressing on. Yer flaws and insecurities are what make you. As much so as your talents and good deeds. If you feel like you don't know how to interact with people... Then don't. But don't fuss too much about that reality. Just make art and make music and don't give a shit about a thing. Be a wierdo, borderline autistic, mad genius. I think the world needs Jared Africa comics and music and art. I sure as shit do. I talk yer work up so damn much to people I know and they always flip when they see it. People dig it.
Like I say I don't have a ton of advice, cuz I deal with this shit too all damn day. But surround yerself as much as you can with positive people. I dont even mean other creative people, cuz sometimes we tear each other down and don't even realize it. Get some cardio and chocolate to get yer brain high. It helps productivity. Get pissed at yourself for the RIGHT reasons. Quit being so self absorbed. Work hard and do what you want.
If I had millions, you would get some. You are too modest or scared or apathetic or something. You are bound for good things with yer creativity. Get famous and rich or get fucked and rot. There I said it.